May 2013
2 posts
April 2013
3 posts
March 2013
4 posts
February 2013
18 posts
Today you asked me how I was doing and I replied with i’m alright. Because I can’t tell you that I wake up every morning waiting for a good morning text that’ll never come„ that I spend all day remember all of our good times together and it breaks my heart all over again, then I go home and curl up with the teddy bear you bought me and cry myself to sleep. So for now I’ll lie to you saying i’m alright and hope some day it’ll be the truth.
that was me for months.
I don’t cry everyday anymore, but u still cross my mind everyday.
I need to move forward. I’m still stuck working with my ex, and while I can block my feelings while AT work, as soon as the day is done and I leave for home…. the drive home is hellish with what-if’s and could-have-beens replaying in your mind. Songs on the radio can drive you nuts with their heart-sick lyrics.
I need to learn to move forward. Move further away from him. Learn to move on.
The feeling when you love someone even if they think of you as devils spawn, say some really harsh things, or just completely stop talking to you period.. you still love them? Even though they may be dating another person, you just put your feelings away even though you know they’re still there,…
everytime I see him, we talk, and I forget that we can’t be.
then when we part ways at the end of the day, the memories echo and all the past hurts surface again.