Today you asked me how I was doing and I replied with i’m alright. Because I can’t tell you that I wake up every morning waiting for a good morning text that’ll never come„ that I spend all day remember all of our good times together and it breaks my heart all over again, then I go home and curl up with the teddy bear you bought me and cry myself to sleep. So for now I’ll lie to you saying i’m alright and hope some day it’ll be the truth.
that was me for months.
I don’t cry everyday anymore, but u still cross my mind everyday.
I need to move forward. I’m still stuck working with my ex, and while I can block my feelings while AT work, as soon as the day is done and I leave for home…. the drive home is hellish with what-if’s and could-have-beens replaying in your mind. Songs on the radio can drive you nuts with their heart-sick lyrics.
I need to learn to move forward. Move further away from him. Learn to move on.